There is no love , just hunger and self flagellation, our own ravishment makes us simple and tidy, stilling our animal with music and other distractions are we smile, make faces and pile them up as propensities for the get down. and who but we alone arouses our puppy eyes, lick blood and eat in greed, just randomly enough to blame it on the weather and stress. The need to posses a diced pineapple to scratch our tongues in echoing oohs and ahhs.
Our hunger is big,very dangerous and we are slaves to it, confused as food but it is the combination of stress sequesterance and acquisition sold to us as a civilization that have brought the world to it’s precipice and life without any form of happiness as we know to today. Woe unto us all for we are the wild tongue out, nerve racking ooga boogas in humble admittance we quell but in denial and particularistic thinking pillage the earth like the ignoramus we are, archetypal greed unto waste.
As a lizard brained beast sex drives me, why then am I denied the satisfaction 0f my first and major impulse, who seeks to gain from my being repressed? And what do I really own in abnegation than stupid junks, who makes these stupid junks? And why do they want to sell them to me instead of allowing find sex and tether (which is what I really want).
Inclusivity
The conspiracy of sexual acceptance in our country Nigeria can be carefully traced to religion.Giving what belongs to Caesar meant religion taking everything from us, from rules that take away the fun of life to caging our females and turning them to reify their own stupidity, denying the man simple inclusivity and a lack of community. She wears the tight dress that highlights the pantyline, she occasionally parts her legs and show inner thighs, I think she want to show it to me, but I am rebuffed entirely at mere thought of sex, citing an all seeing eye at the top. We have become afraid and mad at the same time. Homosexual attraction flying around in handshakes and hugs, ,man’s nature is basely sexual and when denied the vagina of conformity in his search for inclusivity they advertise and introduce to him the motif of civility as a hoard and compilation of junk and have him ‘responsible’ for the sake of inclusivity, which is money and the his failure or ability to get it. Work or walk or no one will touch him . What is work when the money is valueless just enough to keep a sustenance going, caught up in the existential crisis of not having anyone that want to fuck him, he might resign to a deranged way of making money - killings, ritualism and kidnapping just to get enough to afford ‘mere spittle’ as I call it. For if basically atoms never touch, the only thing a woman can give you is the drip of saliva from the blowjob or saliva from the kiss.
The aim of life is it’s continuation, and I say to give life is to commit a big crime which is to give birth to want we must do well to do very little of it as possible, for though we are the cute, cheerful and merry it is the birth of a void, a vortex of ambition and sexual driven greed.
In Nigeria you get to see a young man going the “extra mile” in already extra of cyber-crime by being denied the tether of another, our calm is completely lost, what we have is the restless bareneck of capitalism making us the mad empty
Who can blame but the pastors and preachers that impress on the women as girls the ideology of the ‘damning eve’ the giver of sin, and the acute protestanism that offers no sex to the unachiever, so that we can please the Capitallist god in heaven.
If a man is sexually sated, his need to achieve so much would be reduce drastically, which is why there is a bout denying man the nectar of sex so that he can be a more useful work force.According to Terry Eagleton, he posits that denying the man sex is important for if man taste the “stuff’ he might not want to work.
The Pacific islands and part of Asia such as Timphu and Nepal are littered with men who spend days caressing horses, throatsinging and tending to open fires. There, sex is not the sacred bullion that it is here. Men sated by the sated are not intent on buying cars or building gigantic houses for the end of the means is gotten and quite easily, The aim of life have been fulfilled and Marslow’s hierachy designed like an invented panties have been completed, Because the need is the panties if we are being factual, what you see as a pattern is the linkage and behaviour of a lack of sexual acceptance in Abrahamic religion dominated societies and the destruction of their environment due to proliferation of junks and the serenity and calm of societies with a sexual belonging which are majorly without Abrahamic religion and It’s capitalist greed, A comparison I wrote in details
The Curtailers
Cars and junk everywhere, vestiges of the “achiever” means to the end that boils down to sex. But here is the noose, even when you want to fuck those in hierarchy availed themselves with a counter-punch: VENEREAL DISEASES.
Those who control our behaviors and invented all sort of disease to keep us afraid of ourselves and basically the easy vagaina, so when I look at a person, I am worried that the person might be a carrier of a disease, a diseases invented in a lab.
The 60s and 70s were the high of the psychedellic movement people were finding themselves in hippie communities, stopped being members of the state, fucking and enjoying wearing less and sleeping more. Until they invented the curtailer AIDS
Compare the world in the 70s to now , people had no need to over invest and proliferate endless zeros in bank account, they lived wild and they lived free. Until the advent of AIDS and its derivative that made us to start to think twice, and protect ourselves. as the consequence of contracting these virus are as damning as being on Death roll, why so that we can stop having sex with each other and rather buying rubbish junks.
so you find people living quite “content” alone, (wanking instead of fucking) having more than enough and proliferating junk, being more studious in their useless jobs chasing careers and paying expensive rents rather than truly living, What? You buy a car, another car, another house, all for what. You just roam in emptiness.
Due to this we now lean toward women we consider to be “virginal”another puritanical term and conventional way to say underage, leaving women in their ripe form to an embittered self appreciation and depraved aposematism.
Women of marrying age are left with veins all over their legs, playthings for mad pastors who toy with them, and separate them from their families, due to their desperation to get some still virgins, many who are working class, left to be used and dumped every 3 months like cheap Chinese phones. In tiredness, they might invest in dildo, but no dildo will ever bless your sneeze, you are lonely. You might sign up for adoption but that is more toil for a void that will never appreciate you.
What you really need is company.
So they stay up lying to themselves and denying their basic need to want to fuck and who can blame them after they have been indoctrinated from such an early age denying themselves to be the holy whores that they are designed to be.
As humans we are animals and our first and last instinct is to our bodies but when our bodies become scary to us, due to the rampant diseases invented by people who want to keep us like the unsullied and ready for work, cocooning with religion, we had better commit suicide than live a life of a drone.
For there are no scoreboard angels keeping track of how many dicks you were able to push away so as to tilt karma favorably in providing you with that perfect man.
You might be like God you are so unfair didn't you see all those boys that I didn’t allow fuck me, why can’t you see that as reason to provide me with the exact type of man that I want, and look at that slut she is blessed with a good man… and something along that self righteous thought part.
Anyway if god was your kind of anthropomorphic he would call you selfish for denying another person sex, as a marshal swindle for a better man,
The truth is we all rot eventually, the capitalist thinking of hoarding sex for a better offer is wrong as we meant to brush the gem of ourselves, Diseases and religion now serve as curtailers to mold us firm for the capitalist gyre.
Our energy is sexual and we merely denying us ourselves on a very borrowed life.
It is the reason the young man parts her legs wide to allow the skirt fall in between her, the stiff locked knees of capitalissm can be such an exercise, can be such a pain.
It is the reason why voyeurism and pornography is popular among men because even if you do meet the woman who matches your sexual curiosity you fear for diseases and tag her bravery as demented promiscuity, you might even develop an implanted germaphobia. The truth is something is missing in our life, and the masters degree, the new car, the expensive phone and house will never fill it,
What you need existed once in a cave for 5 minutes and like the iguana, we have not told ourselves okay that’s deep enough, now where are the bitches, but we kept on digging and now we can’t crawl out of it.And religion have lied to us, making us believe that we must find home, and tether with whomever we have sex with, sometimes, a fuck is just a fuck.
Hypergamy
This culture of repression lead to the prostitution towards wealth, hyper-gamy and creating the insatiable and retarded. A plain bad living, where people can’t talk to each other not to talk of fucking each other. Just lying to themselves. Chasing what? Junks, laughable, as we become like secondary school students trying our best to see how we can become first, First in what? The capitalistic rat race give the illusion of a price as masturbation serve as a crutch for the lonely and stupid lives we lead the outlet for our burnout and stress that only serve the conglomerates Toyota Apple and others. So many men will go and buy these just for advertising and impressing that which they only need to take of their clothes to show. And if they get luck, they might touch it? (Bill Burr) What happens to those that can’t afford to? What happens to them? The hyper-gamy is taught to the girl, embroiled in capitalism that if a man doesn’t have a nice car, a duplex, he can’t be considered the standard. He must not be fucked and that is the maxim.
As men our little lives with run ragged with red eyes,we try so hard to earn valueless money and only seeking conscience in return, and what do we meet halfway, an indoctrinated girl brought up to question our effort as not enough to afford them. Are you sure of what you are imitating? Ask yourself who gains from this stupid mind reifying imprisonment, and when you do marry, Bad boss, bad government give stress which lead to more sex more children and more population as you advise against abortion and contraceptive.
All these serve the conglomerates, adding your children to the slave queues that line up to do casual sales work for little pay ad infinitum in a crazed out ouroborous.
Roe vs wade and the united states law against abortion that dogs do so easily prove that there is a bigger game at play. What do they hope to gain by putting a chain on a people’s lives especially women. Sex should not be conception and when the woman is not financially capable or need the space, children shouldn’t be forced on her.
In the olden days just before the crusades, the most important people to women were the midwives, panties just became a thing so underneath most gowns and basques rested naked bums and the ale grabbed and came using the men as grunting vessels, who helped the women continue work in the pub the next day, the midwives providing local herbs and abortificient that rid them of so many would have been cares and worries caused by mere moments of brash animal
But someone wasn’t having that, by tagging the midwives witches, they went after them and killed every single midwives which led to population explosion, tell me who seeks to gain from population explosion ; yes those who collect a certain tributary, offering and money for absolution The FUCKING church. (which was one of Martin Luther’s gripe that made him leave them. It has still continued till today, churches preach against abortions and mosque against family planning, guess who has population that is above it’s resources with okada riding as a profession ; guess, FUCKING Nigeria. Double cloaking itself in the folly of religion, Nigeria boast a bastion of useless eaters with no plans and ambition, an atavistic convolutedness that inches ever closer to it’s implosion, just because one man can’t have his wife doing abortion because of the indoctrination of religious stupidities. Just ask yourself who seeks to gain from our stupid increase in population and ask yourself which country is the richest pastor in the world from, and how many private jets does he have?
I am an animal, my energy is sexual. I don’t have to lie to myself. I hunger for people, and crave their company.I refused to be repressed What then do I do for this, and where do I draw the line and maintain a caution to my animal self, Oh I see this person she is beautiful I approach her,I’m rebuffed, I calm myself down, tomorrow I will see someone better. And there is beauty and miracle in being human but just as a lion can’t help but be a carnivore we must accept that we are brandishing apes.
Admittance quells and calms us down when we become wont to attach mindlessly maxims to chemical reactions. There are no absolutes. Don’t let them make a drone out of you, so that they can sell you a car, phone and biennial electrical appliances. ask yourself who seeks to gain from this model, question it.
ON A FAILED MODEL
So you now have ladies and women at the height of want, far from shame singing “carry me dey go my husband house”, loud and in waning smiles but we all hear the pain their voices. You are not serious we might say and lack back our lonely guffaws back in reassurance that they are not alone in these haunting thoughts of abandonment. For the model have failed us, them as ladies especially, carefully doing chores and singing worship and praise songs waiting for Prince charming to come knocking with a glass slippers this line of thought have made them imbibe a reifying reticence cocooned in hypocrisy and eye service, they do the same thing week in week out, go to church look virginal and continue the don’t talk to them and keep giving green light all, for what? A wasted mind on a borrowed life, your life have no story to it,You end up lodging In the penised presence of an abnegated future and you can’t but lament and say your had I knows when at the upteenth sex, the feel is a bland pastiche and all that smiles you to sleep at night are those moment of fun you had in your university days, Now you want more, more of that, more of that fresh pumping blood and jolt sensations, you start to cheat. (you are lonely again)
Virginity now becomes a marshal swindle,but our boys are not held to such stands and you might not get what you want, you might be decieved and your abnegation not worth it. It is a model built on reticent and delayed gratification a product of puritanical protestanism claiming the body is a temple of the holy spirit and all that crap.There are many women still hung on this model, this Cinderella upbringing that makes them wait for practically nothing, most prince charming these days are in truth, victims of molestation at early ages, adolescent carry over, trudging through puberty with christianised repression surviving through addiction to pornography, learning life through heartbreaks and are staunch red pillers with no damn to give.
But you still think he has a glass slipper with your size? (laughs)
I read one statement on Nairaland where the poster said if you are woman in your 40s and haven’t been hindered by menopause you should just swallow the shame meet a guy of matured age in the church or workplace and beg him to impregnate you, so that you can have a child of your own, I saw the sense in that, I have an aunt and we all have this aunt, who practically bought you your every Christmas, taught you some things showed you how to live, but just couldn’t get it right in the finding the right person department, you must have thought her unlucky, assuring yourself that you will do better, Now you see yourself ending your twenties with nothing and no one insight,a misanthrope and you are beginning to admit that it is possible I will have to be clinging onto my nephews and cousins, for comfort as this dream is also not mine, and you can’t believe it.
As the motif is unsure you must walk with the sanctity of you alone, nothing is promised everything is fickle, even you and the motivation that marriage is not everything. Whether you find the one is not in your hands, Life happens through you and you are just a vessel but you will be goddamned if there aren’t night where you wished the road will not end, you keep looking at faces and you come to the sigh at the end of the road and the turn leads you home, and you can’t believe it.
Believe that there is no perfect man, In the movie Klute you see a woman redeemed and fought for, you too must take a chance for what you want, the model have failed you, nobody cares no one can read minds, you might not live long and life is still not promise, you must Fight for you love, as beautiful as it is, if hidden under a sash will not be found, you must brandish it, peddle it even for you are not the only one selling. (sad but true)
In the movie Life is sweet you see a woman who made a conscious choice at 16 to keep her twins and truck with a man, even though it’s not always rosy, life working itself out, Not easy in Nigeria (movie is in England) but a lot of women overshoot the mark and expect the best of the best even when life offers them something, they keep on believing in something better out there, until it becomes too late.
The failed model means you don’t even know who to love just carry on belief the next person is as yolky on the inside as you are and even ignorant, and try.
Take a chance and love and don’t think in terms of loss and gain.
The Illusion Of Time
Why?
Well I can’t just date a guy just because he asks me out, I have to get to know him first, I want to know his personality and even then as a lady I’m supposed to do shakara(tease) small, and know if he is for real. All these,only possible becaue you believe that you will live long. But that is not in your hands you might not live long.
You might die tomorrow or anytime. So you have the woman trying to be sure, time ticking on nonchalantly, the man in wait inures himself with unending pornography and all that remains the conversation where you last left it, the last time you met in church. With social media dissatisfaction was created laced with the peaceful times give the woman the abundance of option to weigh and re-weigh, weighsting time.
70 years is what we have , if you remove your age from 70 years what remains and how many of that do you want to spend in folly and for the man who is steadily playing comedian, may the joke never get the better of us (Amen).
Some might tell you that they are more concerned with themselves and attain self happiness and fulfillment, which is a hoax, for there are times we have to get up and leave the empty room with the devil inside it, walking the streets filled with people wandering why no one can stop you and finally understand you and you can’t believe it. This self fulfillment an obvious lie, and your claim of not depending on anybody is a lie because you need people, the movie and the music you see and listen to are product of people and they help you in one way or the other and you rely completely on them.Self reliance is good but as a concept it is to be used as an obsequiousness to survive but still as social animals are first instinct is to the body, ours and another.
In Nigeria where we filter reflexively and extensively for those we consider educated, we look for character traits and appearance give away that depict intellect in another person (totally projecting) A young look (dread, Afro or a barbed hair) showing a lack of interest in having her head bent and pulled for an ephemeral stuff called plaiting Bespectacled, and down at the legs for genital hygiene, I mean, obviously (Pretty cave man stuff) and look and find none.
Which is why education being bastardized can be so adverse, education makes it easier for us to easily move on, see another person who is just as intelligent and be able to find tether but we sometimes have to find nothing but abandonment as we tie, fate and destiny to a duplication of cell and mere genetics.
If love is something that can’t be found inevitability due our brain being a waner,our bodies being animal and the sonder, Company is the only thing we must look out for, Company then is to be sought unabashedly, is to be fought for and it’s trespasses easily forgiven. Company doesn’t need the bureaucracies of family gatherings, processions of weddings shouldn't be scared of with the pragmatism of provision and macho, shouldn’t be burdened with the economies of family upbringing If the intention is to have a child a public schooling system with an extra lesson on the side is mild on anyone’s pocket.Media is very important and company must have a shared interest in music and movies because what will company talk about asides the day’s gossip. Company must have a conscience, a feeling heart and must be a good kisser. And if company should tire, let company go and look for another company, there is always one waiting.As a matured woman, that shouldn’t be such a herculean task, should It?
The repression that women reify due to the reification of the madness that is religion only separate us, from each other, Our pang becomes our noose.
For we can have good accompaniment, if we can’t have love.If it as easy as saying:
Hello, do you like sex, I like sex too (smiles), what’s your sign, your temperament are you loud or quiet, quiet, I like quiet so listen here’s what I want, go to work come back home, ask me how I’m doing, don’t try to control or nag me, I don’t like cheating because it exposes us to diseases and stuff,
So here’s what going to happen for the next 50 years, you are going to impregnate me, we raise a child or two, put them through public schooling to save cost, get a cat that make us laugh, practice minimalist livng,
Watch the movies and documentaryies I watch, and listen to some of the music im into so that we have something to talk about, cook when you feel like it and never lie to me, and maybe at 70 we will both be dying tethered to each other, does it seem workable to you.
Someone Has To Pay
Expensive nature of Vagina maintenance, starts from the moment the child is born the plaited hair cost something, the dress, the shoe and make up, and whether you like it or not someone has to pay. These things are not cheap or given freely and whether as a parent you paid for it, you hold the receipts in your mind knowing someday you will have to hand over them as tax returns for the person whose surname she eventually have to bear. She’s not mine and someone has to pay.
Someone have to pay for the uphold of appearance, hair, facial features, the long legs, beautiful frame and all other upkeep.
Vagina is not cheap and Someone has to pay, someone has to pay, does that person have the money, you don’t care Is he handsome don’t care Someone has to pay
I’m walking with a heels I borrowed money for just to look good this Sunday, someone must definitely pay (oh oh alter ego) It comes with a calculator in your mind calculating life in terms of profit and loss, how tiresome, don’t smile too much that smile is ten thousand naira, he gave you five thousand naira, you are too cheap. He won’t value you, he won’t pay the full price. Hmm.
The proliferation of girls in Nigeria make me worry sometimes, I’m like who’s going to fuck all these girls there are lot of them and all within the range of 15 to 35, its crazy. That is a lot women and they are not out thinking this model, this acrimonious thinking that make devils out of them.
Even when you go extra mile and provide financial womb for a man he has to pay with respect and faithfulness. Someone has to pay and that is the problems there is no more money in circulation The economy has taken a downturn and people are shying away from taking women This model makes the woman a scary thought.
If that is what it takes who then can truly afford you, because with this thought process you are becomes for sale even the simple thing as having a conscience can only be found if the money paid the last time is still left and lingering in the mind,
On whose back, a man trucking on borrowed life? Common
Acquisition ah acquisition give no room to discount anything at all, which to me is a big problem; this new found need to possess adjoined closely with the need to be someone give the illusion of time to forage while we filter who we think will be worth it, (no one is worth it) and that make us too critical of every person
Venereal disease machinated against us make us, hinder and and hampers a life that really is a fuck fest. And you cant ;lose anything at all and everything feeds you
But who sets to gain by our lack of a sense of belonging ; Apple Toyota and other conglomerates and companies who sell the the age of self and illusion of choice on a borrowed life, In this capitalism of repression ask yourself who sells the junk that we proliferate in abeyance, they are the ones we ought to take the fight to.
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Our hunger is big,very dangerous and we are slaves to it, confused as food but it is the combination of stress sequesterance and acquisition sold to us as a civilization that have brought the world to it’s precipice and life without any form of happiness as we know to today. Woe unto us all for we are the wild tongue out, nerve racking ooga boogas in humble admittance we quell but in denial and particularistic thinking pillage the earth like the ignoramus we are, archetypal greed unto waste.
As a lizard brained beast sex drives me, why then am I denied the satisfaction 0f my first and major impulse, who seeks to gain from my being repressed? And what do I really own in abnegation than stupid junks, who makes these stupid junks? And why do they want to sell them to me instead of allowing find sex and tether (which is what I really want).
Inclusivity
The conspiracy of sexual acceptance in our country Nigeria can be carefully traced to religion.Giving what belongs to Caesar meant religion taking everything from us, from rules that take away the fun of life to caging our females and turning them to reify their own stupidity, denying the man simple inclusivity and a lack of community. She wears the tight dress that highlights the pantyline, she occasionally parts her legs and show inner thighs, I think she want to show it to me, but I am rebuffed entirely at mere thought of sex, citing an all seeing eye at the top. We have become afraid and mad at the same time. Homosexual attraction flying around in handshakes and hugs, ,man’s nature is basely sexual and when denied the vagina of conformity in his search for inclusivity they advertise and introduce to him the motif of civility as a hoard and compilation of junk and have him ‘responsible’ for the sake of inclusivity, which is money and the his failure or ability to get it. Work or walk or no one will touch him . What is work when the money is valueless just enough to keep a sustenance going, caught up in the existential crisis of not having anyone that want to fuck him, he might resign to a deranged way of making money - killings, ritualism and kidnapping just to get enough to afford ‘mere spittle’ as I call it. For if basically atoms never touch, the only thing a woman can give you is the drip of saliva from the blowjob or saliva from the kiss.
The aim of life is it’s continuation, and I say to give life is to commit a big crime which is to give birth to want we must do well to do very little of it as possible, for though we are the cute, cheerful and merry it is the birth of a void, a vortex of ambition and sexual driven greed.
In Nigeria you get to see a young man going the “extra mile” in already extra of cyber-crime by being denied the tether of another, our calm is completely lost, what we have is the restless bareneck of capitalism making us the mad empty
Who can blame but the pastors and preachers that impress on the women as girls the ideology of the ‘damning eve’ the giver of sin, and the acute protestanism that offers no sex to the unachiever, so that we can please the Capitallist god in heaven.
If a man is sexually sated, his need to achieve so much would be reduce drastically, which is why there is a bout denying man the nectar of sex so that he can be a more useful work force.According to Terry Eagleton, he posits that denying the man sex is important for if man taste the “stuff’ he might not want to work.
The Pacific islands and part of Asia such as Timphu and Nepal are littered with men who spend days caressing horses, throatsinging and tending to open fires. There, sex is not the sacred bullion that it is here. Men sated by the sated are not intent on buying cars or building gigantic houses for the end of the means is gotten and quite easily, The aim of life have been fulfilled and Marslow’s hierachy designed like an invented panties have been completed, Because the need is the panties if we are being factual, what you see as a pattern is the linkage and behaviour of a lack of sexual acceptance in Abrahamic religion dominated societies and the destruction of their environment due to proliferation of junks and the serenity and calm of societies with a sexual belonging which are majorly without Abrahamic religion and It’s capitalist greed, A comparison I wrote in details
The Curtailers
Cars and junk everywhere, vestiges of the “achiever” means to the end that boils down to sex. But here is the noose, even when you want to fuck those in hierarchy availed themselves with a counter-punch: VENEREAL DISEASES.
Those who control our behaviors and invented all sort of disease to keep us afraid of ourselves and basically the easy vagaina, so when I look at a person, I am worried that the person might be a carrier of a disease, a diseases invented in a lab.
The 60s and 70s were the high of the psychedellic movement people were finding themselves in hippie communities, stopped being members of the state, fucking and enjoying wearing less and sleeping more. Until they invented the curtailer AIDS
Compare the world in the 70s to now , people had no need to over invest and proliferate endless zeros in bank account, they lived wild and they lived free. Until the advent of AIDS and its derivative that made us to start to think twice, and protect ourselves. as the consequence of contracting these virus are as damning as being on Death roll, why so that we can stop having sex with each other and rather buying rubbish junks.
so you find people living quite “content” alone, (wanking instead of fucking) having more than enough and proliferating junk, being more studious in their useless jobs chasing careers and paying expensive rents rather than truly living, What? You buy a car, another car, another house, all for what. You just roam in emptiness.
Due to this we now lean toward women we consider to be “virginal”another puritanical term and conventional way to say underage, leaving women in their ripe form to an embittered self appreciation and depraved aposematism.
Women of marrying age are left with veins all over their legs, playthings for mad pastors who toy with them, and separate them from their families, due to their desperation to get some still virgins, many who are working class, left to be used and dumped every 3 months like cheap Chinese phones. In tiredness, they might invest in dildo, but no dildo will ever bless your sneeze, you are lonely. You might sign up for adoption but that is more toil for a void that will never appreciate you.
What you really need is company.
So they stay up lying to themselves and denying their basic need to want to fuck and who can blame them after they have been indoctrinated from such an early age denying themselves to be the holy whores that they are designed to be.
As humans we are animals and our first and last instinct is to our bodies but when our bodies become scary to us, due to the rampant diseases invented by people who want to keep us like the unsullied and ready for work, cocooning with religion, we had better commit suicide than live a life of a drone.
For there are no scoreboard angels keeping track of how many dicks you were able to push away so as to tilt karma favorably in providing you with that perfect man.
You might be like God you are so unfair didn't you see all those boys that I didn’t allow fuck me, why can’t you see that as reason to provide me with the exact type of man that I want, and look at that slut she is blessed with a good man… and something along that self righteous thought part.
Anyway if god was your kind of anthropomorphic he would call you selfish for denying another person sex, as a marshal swindle for a better man,
The truth is we all rot eventually, the capitalist thinking of hoarding sex for a better offer is wrong as we meant to brush the gem of ourselves, Diseases and religion now serve as curtailers to mold us firm for the capitalist gyre.
Our energy is sexual and we merely denying us ourselves on a very borrowed life.
It is the reason the young man parts her legs wide to allow the skirt fall in between her, the stiff locked knees of capitalissm can be such an exercise, can be such a pain.
It is the reason why voyeurism and pornography is popular among men because even if you do meet the woman who matches your sexual curiosity you fear for diseases and tag her bravery as demented promiscuity, you might even develop an implanted germaphobia. The truth is something is missing in our life, and the masters degree, the new car, the expensive phone and house will never fill it,
What you need existed once in a cave for 5 minutes and like the iguana, we have not told ourselves okay that’s deep enough, now where are the bitches, but we kept on digging and now we can’t crawl out of it.And religion have lied to us, making us believe that we must find home, and tether with whomever we have sex with, sometimes, a fuck is just a fuck.
Hypergamy
This culture of repression lead to the prostitution towards wealth, hyper-gamy and creating the insatiable and retarded. A plain bad living, where people can’t talk to each other not to talk of fucking each other. Just lying to themselves. Chasing what? Junks, laughable, as we become like secondary school students trying our best to see how we can become first, First in what? The capitalistic rat race give the illusion of a price as masturbation serve as a crutch for the lonely and stupid lives we lead the outlet for our burnout and stress that only serve the conglomerates Toyota Apple and others. So many men will go and buy these just for advertising and impressing that which they only need to take of their clothes to show. And if they get luck, they might touch it? (Bill Burr) What happens to those that can’t afford to? What happens to them? The hyper-gamy is taught to the girl, embroiled in capitalism that if a man doesn’t have a nice car, a duplex, he can’t be considered the standard. He must not be fucked and that is the maxim.
As men our little lives with run ragged with red eyes,we try so hard to earn valueless money and only seeking conscience in return, and what do we meet halfway, an indoctrinated girl brought up to question our effort as not enough to afford them. Are you sure of what you are imitating? Ask yourself who gains from this stupid mind reifying imprisonment, and when you do marry, Bad boss, bad government give stress which lead to more sex more children and more population as you advise against abortion and contraceptive.
All these serve the conglomerates, adding your children to the slave queues that line up to do casual sales work for little pay ad infinitum in a crazed out ouroborous.
Roe vs wade and the united states law against abortion that dogs do so easily prove that there is a bigger game at play. What do they hope to gain by putting a chain on a people’s lives especially women. Sex should not be conception and when the woman is not financially capable or need the space, children shouldn’t be forced on her.
In the olden days just before the crusades, the most important people to women were the midwives, panties just became a thing so underneath most gowns and basques rested naked bums and the ale grabbed and came using the men as grunting vessels, who helped the women continue work in the pub the next day, the midwives providing local herbs and abortificient that rid them of so many would have been cares and worries caused by mere moments of brash animal
But someone wasn’t having that, by tagging the midwives witches, they went after them and killed every single midwives which led to population explosion, tell me who seeks to gain from population explosion ; yes those who collect a certain tributary, offering and money for absolution The FUCKING church. (which was one of Martin Luther’s gripe that made him leave them. It has still continued till today, churches preach against abortions and mosque against family planning, guess who has population that is above it’s resources with okada riding as a profession ; guess, FUCKING Nigeria. Double cloaking itself in the folly of religion, Nigeria boast a bastion of useless eaters with no plans and ambition, an atavistic convolutedness that inches ever closer to it’s implosion, just because one man can’t have his wife doing abortion because of the indoctrination of religious stupidities. Just ask yourself who seeks to gain from our stupid increase in population and ask yourself which country is the richest pastor in the world from, and how many private jets does he have?
I am an animal, my energy is sexual. I don’t have to lie to myself. I hunger for people, and crave their company.I refused to be repressed What then do I do for this, and where do I draw the line and maintain a caution to my animal self, Oh I see this person she is beautiful I approach her,I’m rebuffed, I calm myself down, tomorrow I will see someone better. And there is beauty and miracle in being human but just as a lion can’t help but be a carnivore we must accept that we are brandishing apes.
Admittance quells and calms us down when we become wont to attach mindlessly maxims to chemical reactions. There are no absolutes. Don’t let them make a drone out of you, so that they can sell you a car, phone and biennial electrical appliances. ask yourself who seeks to gain from this model, question it.
ON A FAILED MODEL
So you now have ladies and women at the height of want, far from shame singing “carry me dey go my husband house”, loud and in waning smiles but we all hear the pain their voices. You are not serious we might say and lack back our lonely guffaws back in reassurance that they are not alone in these haunting thoughts of abandonment. For the model have failed us, them as ladies especially, carefully doing chores and singing worship and praise songs waiting for Prince charming to come knocking with a glass slippers this line of thought have made them imbibe a reifying reticence cocooned in hypocrisy and eye service, they do the same thing week in week out, go to church look virginal and continue the don’t talk to them and keep giving green light all, for what? A wasted mind on a borrowed life, your life have no story to it,You end up lodging In the penised presence of an abnegated future and you can’t but lament and say your had I knows when at the upteenth sex, the feel is a bland pastiche and all that smiles you to sleep at night are those moment of fun you had in your university days, Now you want more, more of that, more of that fresh pumping blood and jolt sensations, you start to cheat. (you are lonely again)
Virginity now becomes a marshal swindle,but our boys are not held to such stands and you might not get what you want, you might be decieved and your abnegation not worth it. It is a model built on reticent and delayed gratification a product of puritanical protestanism claiming the body is a temple of the holy spirit and all that crap.There are many women still hung on this model, this Cinderella upbringing that makes them wait for practically nothing, most prince charming these days are in truth, victims of molestation at early ages, adolescent carry over, trudging through puberty with christianised repression surviving through addiction to pornography, learning life through heartbreaks and are staunch red pillers with no damn to give.
But you still think he has a glass slipper with your size? (laughs)
I read one statement on Nairaland where the poster said if you are woman in your 40s and haven’t been hindered by menopause you should just swallow the shame meet a guy of matured age in the church or workplace and beg him to impregnate you, so that you can have a child of your own, I saw the sense in that, I have an aunt and we all have this aunt, who practically bought you your every Christmas, taught you some things showed you how to live, but just couldn’t get it right in the finding the right person department, you must have thought her unlucky, assuring yourself that you will do better, Now you see yourself ending your twenties with nothing and no one insight,a misanthrope and you are beginning to admit that it is possible I will have to be clinging onto my nephews and cousins, for comfort as this dream is also not mine, and you can’t believe it.
As the motif is unsure you must walk with the sanctity of you alone, nothing is promised everything is fickle, even you and the motivation that marriage is not everything. Whether you find the one is not in your hands, Life happens through you and you are just a vessel but you will be goddamned if there aren’t night where you wished the road will not end, you keep looking at faces and you come to the sigh at the end of the road and the turn leads you home, and you can’t believe it.
Believe that there is no perfect man, In the movie Klute you see a woman redeemed and fought for, you too must take a chance for what you want, the model have failed you, nobody cares no one can read minds, you might not live long and life is still not promise, you must Fight for you love, as beautiful as it is, if hidden under a sash will not be found, you must brandish it, peddle it even for you are not the only one selling. (sad but true)
In the movie Life is sweet you see a woman who made a conscious choice at 16 to keep her twins and truck with a man, even though it’s not always rosy, life working itself out, Not easy in Nigeria (movie is in England) but a lot of women overshoot the mark and expect the best of the best even when life offers them something, they keep on believing in something better out there, until it becomes too late.
The failed model means you don’t even know who to love just carry on belief the next person is as yolky on the inside as you are and even ignorant, and try.
Take a chance and love and don’t think in terms of loss and gain.
The Illusion Of Time
Why?
Well I can’t just date a guy just because he asks me out, I have to get to know him first, I want to know his personality and even then as a lady I’m supposed to do shakara(tease) small, and know if he is for real. All these,only possible becaue you believe that you will live long. But that is not in your hands you might not live long.
You might die tomorrow or anytime. So you have the woman trying to be sure, time ticking on nonchalantly, the man in wait inures himself with unending pornography and all that remains the conversation where you last left it, the last time you met in church. With social media dissatisfaction was created laced with the peaceful times give the woman the abundance of option to weigh and re-weigh, weighsting time.
70 years is what we have , if you remove your age from 70 years what remains and how many of that do you want to spend in folly and for the man who is steadily playing comedian, may the joke never get the better of us (Amen).
Some might tell you that they are more concerned with themselves and attain self happiness and fulfillment, which is a hoax, for there are times we have to get up and leave the empty room with the devil inside it, walking the streets filled with people wandering why no one can stop you and finally understand you and you can’t believe it. This self fulfillment an obvious lie, and your claim of not depending on anybody is a lie because you need people, the movie and the music you see and listen to are product of people and they help you in one way or the other and you rely completely on them.Self reliance is good but as a concept it is to be used as an obsequiousness to survive but still as social animals are first instinct is to the body, ours and another.
In Nigeria where we filter reflexively and extensively for those we consider educated, we look for character traits and appearance give away that depict intellect in another person (totally projecting) A young look (dread, Afro or a barbed hair) showing a lack of interest in having her head bent and pulled for an ephemeral stuff called plaiting Bespectacled, and down at the legs for genital hygiene, I mean, obviously (Pretty cave man stuff) and look and find none.
Which is why education being bastardized can be so adverse, education makes it easier for us to easily move on, see another person who is just as intelligent and be able to find tether but we sometimes have to find nothing but abandonment as we tie, fate and destiny to a duplication of cell and mere genetics.
If love is something that can’t be found inevitability due our brain being a waner,our bodies being animal and the sonder, Company is the only thing we must look out for, Company then is to be sought unabashedly, is to be fought for and it’s trespasses easily forgiven. Company doesn’t need the bureaucracies of family gatherings, processions of weddings shouldn't be scared of with the pragmatism of provision and macho, shouldn’t be burdened with the economies of family upbringing If the intention is to have a child a public schooling system with an extra lesson on the side is mild on anyone’s pocket.Media is very important and company must have a shared interest in music and movies because what will company talk about asides the day’s gossip. Company must have a conscience, a feeling heart and must be a good kisser. And if company should tire, let company go and look for another company, there is always one waiting.As a matured woman, that shouldn’t be such a herculean task, should It?
The repression that women reify due to the reification of the madness that is religion only separate us, from each other, Our pang becomes our noose.
For we can have good accompaniment, if we can’t have love.If it as easy as saying:
Hello, do you like sex, I like sex too (smiles), what’s your sign, your temperament are you loud or quiet, quiet, I like quiet so listen here’s what I want, go to work come back home, ask me how I’m doing, don’t try to control or nag me, I don’t like cheating because it exposes us to diseases and stuff,
So here’s what going to happen for the next 50 years, you are going to impregnate me, we raise a child or two, put them through public schooling to save cost, get a cat that make us laugh, practice minimalist livng,
Watch the movies and documentaryies I watch, and listen to some of the music im into so that we have something to talk about, cook when you feel like it and never lie to me, and maybe at 70 we will both be dying tethered to each other, does it seem workable to you.
Someone Has To Pay
Expensive nature of Vagina maintenance, starts from the moment the child is born the plaited hair cost something, the dress, the shoe and make up, and whether you like it or not someone has to pay. These things are not cheap or given freely and whether as a parent you paid for it, you hold the receipts in your mind knowing someday you will have to hand over them as tax returns for the person whose surname she eventually have to bear. She’s not mine and someone has to pay.
Someone have to pay for the uphold of appearance, hair, facial features, the long legs, beautiful frame and all other upkeep.
Vagina is not cheap and Someone has to pay, someone has to pay, does that person have the money, you don’t care Is he handsome don’t care Someone has to pay
I’m walking with a heels I borrowed money for just to look good this Sunday, someone must definitely pay (oh oh alter ego) It comes with a calculator in your mind calculating life in terms of profit and loss, how tiresome, don’t smile too much that smile is ten thousand naira, he gave you five thousand naira, you are too cheap. He won’t value you, he won’t pay the full price. Hmm.
The proliferation of girls in Nigeria make me worry sometimes, I’m like who’s going to fuck all these girls there are lot of them and all within the range of 15 to 35, its crazy. That is a lot women and they are not out thinking this model, this acrimonious thinking that make devils out of them.
Even when you go extra mile and provide financial womb for a man he has to pay with respect and faithfulness. Someone has to pay and that is the problems there is no more money in circulation The economy has taken a downturn and people are shying away from taking women This model makes the woman a scary thought.
If that is what it takes who then can truly afford you, because with this thought process you are becomes for sale even the simple thing as having a conscience can only be found if the money paid the last time is still left and lingering in the mind,
On whose back, a man trucking on borrowed life? Common
Acquisition ah acquisition give no room to discount anything at all, which to me is a big problem; this new found need to possess adjoined closely with the need to be someone give the illusion of time to forage while we filter who we think will be worth it, (no one is worth it) and that make us too critical of every person
Venereal disease machinated against us make us, hinder and and hampers a life that really is a fuck fest. And you cant ;lose anything at all and everything feeds you
But who sets to gain by our lack of a sense of belonging ; Apple Toyota and other conglomerates and companies who sell the the age of self and illusion of choice on a borrowed life, In this capitalism of repression ask yourself who sells the junk that we proliferate in abeyance, they are the ones we ought to take the fight to.
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