Some Say I Contradict Myself

 

Some say I contradict myself, You talk about love, and are disgusted by essence, extol the psyche cleanse, preach love and still discredit marriages, Especially in the poem Shudder merciless, what's that?
I'll explain by saying firstly,  I'm not asking to live a life monastic but you don't have to subject accompaniment as marriages
You don't need to be married to your company
Go after them but don't see them as end in themselves the pivot and fulcrum in the self is your happiness so if essence is love shudder away and the love should stem from what remains of it's love stick to it as company but not as completion 

True completion lies having a child but also knowing that Life can take them trim you like the parents victim of the Sosoliso plane crash
Once you accept that you are your own comfort I. Fjre tesaad then you can accept ebruruingl life is hreiws shd take from you 
Hkw can he talk about taking Ownership and disparage marriage in the same breath, Kobe has nothing to do with marriage 
I'm telling women to take ownership of their Love it had nothing to do with being married 
First you have to understand that love is the bathe of ones sacrifice you see your love is not outside you but within you.
You are giving it out, why women are they skewed is that they have too much love and don't know how to give it.
Gintama they describe life like a having a weight on your shoulder of you don't have a weight on your shoulder you feel useless and meaningless.
A lit of women thought they would enjoy life eby escaping fromeut but it made them bland Haggard afterward
You are supposed to grab hold of life kide a new born she feed him the goodness inside of you 
Your love Should be given out, which is Why I wrote taking Ownership it doesn't mean getting married
If I was a Woman after my university I would have gotten a boyfriend, but first I would have a business I known can sustain me and if he's interested Id take the boyfriend not because I want him to complete me no I get my completion from books business and movies
I get him because I want a child, I don't have to marry him,
Once I get the child I tell him I'd he wants to stay and accompany me through life, here's his quota of support and how many times we are going to be having sex 
The child belongs to me, it will come n the bear my surname 
I have taken ownership of that love and didn't need to marry him he is free to leave he is just Company 
of course,when he leaves I will cry, Id you know take my time and look for another company, home school my child and live a wonderful life.

That is different from the ethos of getting married and reducing your self for another man's money The same thing applies to the man what I am against is the status quo, that is quite reductionist. Understanding that Life can still take that child and that wife from you, You would be calmer and the gentler appreciate it when it happens.
So taking Ownership you decide how you want to spend your life and how to give your love to your company. Because with your to do list and daily schedule you are planned for life.
It's a 
Hey you Wake up kiss me, what are your plans for today alright meet me at sos os restaurant around 5pm afterwards we are trekking home alright.
You can do this for 450 years and find no need for marriage. There will be mutual respect and mental freedom
I don't owe you responsibility money you don't owe me beggars sex Which is what 90 percent of marriage feels like 
Which brings me to my point on shudder merciless I pass by a girl and she send me essence, helpless at that for both of us, that is nature, she can't help it, I can't help it. Why now should I therefore destroy a marriage I spent years to build because of that?why not remove the essence by masturbating the hold she has on my psyche perform the astral sex. 
God has designed the body for others to have access to you but it doesnt have to be fatal nor final,  don't let it snowball and lead to the destruction of what you have.
When you go ahead and cheat on your spouse you find out that newness is the same thing.
So why destroy your marriages Tor something that could have ended quietly
You can fall in love every single day it you allow it.
People will send essence to you on the bus and in the banking hall you cant do anything about it, Remove it from your person and remain and think clear

The second contradiction is connotative to say the least it enlists What happens when I talk about god in both positive and negative, Am I talking about two gods, Yes you best believe that I am, what you should pay attention to and be interested in is the context in which God is being discussed 
For I believe there are two gods Vishnu and Dagon the God supreme and the god of capitalism When I talk God derogatory I'm taking about the god of capitalism hoisted on us
Like Enel in One piece, He is the gold crazed lightning flogger, while the real God is a farmer. 
But this god engenders  is a pillager, the wrong god While the true God is a flowering, that very essence of peace.
When your god feels like a jailer a registrar marking good and bad it is a wrong god or a wrong notion of god, it is bad enough that it is anthropomorphic but it is doubly reductionist to say that he monitors your every action.

He is a supreme being, God is too big to record what a puny ant like you is doing. Have you ever seen a bacteria masturbating that is an analogy to describe that God is watching all you do.He is too Big too Great
Only the Buddha, Buddhist and Hindu scripture come close to describing his magnificence so if talk about "your God" I am insinuating at the very idea of the jailer christian mentally of god which is a wrong god, or a very wrong notion of God 
My "contradictions" if you there were ever any are in context mostly, connotative and my bone of contention remains the ethos.


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