Bloodied Panties

 


what god would watch a groan in a stiffness
see a knife tear into a doll rend it lifeless
for he must have looked up at you, God?
and down not at this schoolbag of a person.

a 3 year old vagina isn't the equivalent of a clenched fist
and he forced his way through that, 

Blood panties in my psyche
and I can't get the image out my mind
this isn't a poem it is a pyre
to immolate the man who did this for 
the rest of space and time

Tell the world that there about a man 
who held a 3 year old to ransom
and snuff the life out from her
and he's not the first, nor will he be the last

How do I look my child? any child
knowing that aren't immune to a crazy world
how dare I comfort them knowing they could be 
raped like and hurt like, and destroyed like that 
how do I continue when I can't even sleep at night
this is what offertories should be spent on
but there's been no condemnation from any religious body.
a little girl has to walk around with a hole in her heart
one none can sew or sew sweet light back to her.
snuffed out light at the very ember of life 

blood panties in my psyche 
a 3 year old is ruined while I contemplate the morning
dis she call on her daddy - what was he thinking 
did she call on her mummy - what was he thinking
did she call on God - what was God thinking 
did she scream at the void - what kind of life is this
did she scream at all 

bloody panties in my psyche and 
I touch my chest feeling a crevice where a heart should be
did she call on her daddy.
did she call on God, did she even scream at all 
the gnawing... gnawing question for me is
how the hell did he put her panties back on


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GATEMAN DEFILES 3 YEAR OLD